I hold it in for a minute,
I wait until the coast is clear,
Im going to do it tonight,
What have I left to fear?
Im holding it in my hands,
The impliment pressed against my skin,
Im definately doing it tonight,
I need to kill the pain within.
But I stop for a moment,
I pause with tears down my face,
Imagining my mothers woe because of all this,
I'd be another family disgrace.
If only I had the will power not to care anymore,
If only I could close my eyes and just dissapear,
The pain would all go away from inside of me,
My mind would be fresh and clear.
My eyes are like glass now,
Im moving in a zombie like way,
Life continu
Where has those girls gone?
The girls who were so much fun,
They made me laugh,
They made made me smile,
But Ive not seen them in a while.
Why has she left life behind?
Shes chosen badly in my eyes,
Settling down far too soon,
I cant believe shes dissappearing,
When she speaks now I cant believe the things Im hearing.
Trees are no longer climbed,
Knees and elbows are squeeky clean,
She has lost her magic spark,
Now shes judgemental,
Shes become so mean.
All those magic people I used to know,
Theyve left me behind as Ive watched them grow,
But theyre not smiling,
Their teeth have no gleam,
And they like to take it out on me.
Time is wasted on me,
I dont deserve it,
Its precious gift is thrown away,
I waste it knowingly.
But I cant stop,
I cant get out of this miserable cycle,
Will you talk to me today?
Should I talk to you?
I wonder around in my head,
Will it happen again?
What is it about her thats better than me?
How can I be happy again knowing your not mine?
Wasted youth,
Wasted thoughts,
Time spent wishing instead of living,
Hours not lost...but wasted.
I know this is happening,
I hate that Im doing this to myself,
But I cant stop,
Time continues to be wasted.
I need rescuing,
Take this hatred from me,
Destroy this worry and self tormen
We were friends,
good friends,
great friends,
best friends.
But you ruined it,
you lied,
we cried,
the pain wouldnt subside.
I trusted you,
I needed you,
I loved you,
I always wanted to be there with you.
We no longer talk,
we no longer laugh,
we no longer smile,
we havent seen each other for a while.
I miss you some days,
Some times not so much,
Even so now and then,
we will keep in touch.
I loved our times together,
you always made me smile.
And I know to find a friend as fun as you again,
will certainly take a while.
A sickening feeling.
It's no stomachache.
A sickening feeling,
Every single time I'm awake.
Break my soul,
My heart turn it black,
My sanity here I shall never get back.
I feel like shit,
I made me cry,
Life pisses me off,
And I want to die.
A sickening feeling,
Night and day.
A sickening feeling,
That just won't go away.
Old faces
Tired places
Strangers through and through.
Acquaintences
Unapproachable.
Ghosts from the past
(chorus)
People you hurt
People who hurt you
People you may not meet again.
It's the same globe
The same population
But in the end we're all strangers.
Words and phrases
Endless changes.
Speech don't mean a thing
The world's no oyster
I've lived and learned it.
This pain won't ever end
(chorus)
(bridge)
When oh when will we change our minds
When will the poisoned vocabulary stop
Will we ever have courage to fly...
(chorus to fade)
Current Residence: Bristol Favourite genre of music: Electro, beakbeat, rnb, hip hop, mali, dub, some pop if it actually means something-Not just for Favourite photographer: Gillian wearing Operating System: Mac MP3 player of choice: ipod Shell of choice: Turtle! Favourite cartoon character: Eric Cartman! Personal Quote: It isnt our abilities that show who we truely are, it is our choices
Favourite Visual Artist
Jackson Pollock
Favourite Movies
Far too many!
Favourite Writers
J.K. Rowling
Favourite Games
Duke Nukem!
Tools of the Trade
paintbrush,pen and camera!
Other Interests
Doing all kinds of art, knitting, playing guitar...
Ive not been on here in aaaaaaaaaages!
Well Ive been working on a few paintings but now I work full time as an editor I dont get much time now :O
Hope every one is well and loving all ur stuff!
Big love!:heart:
Jo xxx
Hello there all!
Well Im almost at the end of my university life....scary...
Im handing in my final important bit of work tomorrow...:eyepopping:
But Ive got lots of festivals planned over the summer, and bournemouth is beautiful and sunny! :dance:And then 'real world here I come!'
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:excited:Everyone check out my minor film for my uni degree, let me know what you think!
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You wake up in a red room with no windows and doors, DON'T panic.. you're just in my heart!!! Send this to all the friends you want to keep forever...
Today is Bestfriend Day. Send this to all of your friends, and me if I am one. If you get 7 back you are LOVED!!! Here are the numbers of what kind of friend you are based on how many you get back..
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